Reading through my daily glut of RSS feeds, I happened upon an article about branding yourself. No, not in the hot-iron-to-the-rump sort of way. It’s written in the context of soccer. It’s advice to would-be professionals on how to make yourself a commodity. It’s pretty fascinating, as I had no idea that soccer in the U.S. would be such a cut-throat hive of politics.
I particularly liked Step 2:
Step 2: Play every game as if it’s the one where the eyes could be on you.
First off, this is the mentality you should have in everything you do - 100% optimization at all times. As a player, it’s crucial that you play with that sense of accountability and urgency. As a recruit, it’s essential. The way you carry yourself will tend to have a greater impact than the tangible performance you turn in on a given afternoon or night. Why wouldn’t it? Every coach knows players have off matches. The integrity and class a player shows during those off-games will give them a much better sense of what they’re in for when you enter the program.
I was reading the whole article and trying to place it in a context that would be beneficial to me. My job as both a martial arts instructor and a student came to mind. The idea that white belts are always watching is not a new one for me. When ever we recruit someone new, the person that was the ‘new guy’ before suddenly becomes senior rank to someone. Forever after, that person who is junior rank will look up to those more senior to them. If you’ve got the magical black belt, that goes double.
What I have realized recently is the fact that there’s another aspect to the ‘all eyes are on you’. If you instruct and have your own students, they are always watching you to see how it should be done. It’s very hard to have an off day when you’re up in front of the class. The other set of eyes that focuses on instructors are those of the governing body of your particular association and the instructor’s instructor. So, you get it from both sides. Your sandwiched in between two sets of people that are watching your every move.
This revelation was because of a mishap at the latest competition I went to. I was in the ring with the rest of the black belts doing hyung, weapons and sparring. I thought for sure I knew the weapons hyung I needed to do. I even managed to get through a third of it before royally botching the rest. Normally, I wouldn’t care. I hate competition.
It was different this time, though. I was being evaluated by the master instructors in my region. They saw me mess up. Moreover, they know that I have my own students. They have to be thinking: If he can’t even remember his own hyung, how is he ever going to teach students? The only positive I could get out of the moment was the fact that none of my students were participating in this particular weekend. Many of my cohorts from the dohjang I train in were there, so it was almost as bad.
I need to start taking seriously the idea that I am always being evaluated, always being looked at and sized up. It is a fact that as I progress in rank and continue to teach and learn, I will have fewer and fewer people of the same rank to blend in with. That’s just the way it goes when you’re a dan.
tang soo do